Operation

I just underwent an operation on my left ankle a few days ago. Its only then I realise how nikmat to have an angkle. You cant do alot without just one ankle. Thankfully its temporary.

Its different when we learn fiqh and actually practising it. Heard and read many ways on how to take a simple ablution with bandage on my left ankle.

From 3 serankai book pg 76. It says "apabila ia besuci wajiblah membasuh angotanye yang sihat. Kemudian mengusap balutannya selanjutnye lalu tayammum kerana ada lukanya.........."

Then as far as i can recall from a class i attended pad istiqamah some years back, if im not mistaken, take the ablution as normal, then when comes to the bandanged area, u just need to tayammum.

Looking at my ankle, its bandanged just at the ankle area. leaving my toes free.



Confused, i just called my ustad.haha.

"Take the ablution as normal, and wash the left toes first and wipe the bandanged with water."

Time for solat. Niat memang nak jamak je.. haha. And its allowed.

This is my praying area,

Solating

Sujud

Notice my crutches on my bed. haha. Its quite difficult to walk with those, really. Initially I thought You use your armpit to "walk". but no, You use your fist to walk. You have to rest your body weight on ur fist and not on ur armpit.

After some time right, I realize that there's no need to use a praying mat since i will not literally sit on the floor. HAHA..

Be thankfull if we can walk, and be thankfull if we can use cruthes instead, some people are on wheelchair. Be thankfull if we are on wheelchair, some people are paralysed on their bed. like vegetable. be thankfull if............. The biggest gift is the iman.

Wasalam.

Maybe now i know how U feel.

Ive been observing everytime for any1 to buy the thing for all to use. but no one did it. so i decided to buy one and waqafkan for all to use.

Alhamdulillah, i managed to keep it anonymous. no one knows tat i am the owner of tat thing. initailly, i thought the greatest challenge is only at the 1st day(not to tell any1), BUT the wisper of shaitan keep telling me to "just tell atleast 1 person". this voice is still in me. it gets tougher everyday to restrain myself not to follow tat voice, and i pray that Allah give me the strength to win this battle.

To make things more challenging, the thing i gave, within 2-3 weeks, it has a label on it. it says "property of ..................." well....... i was shocked to see tat on my stuff.its like, "hei, thats mine, why do u put it as ur property.?" at that very instance i tot of telling atleast 1 person,i tot of "can u take out the label pasted on that thing, because tats mine. but this time around a different wisper came.

I find total relief right after tat. this was wat the voice said to me. "That is how ur God feels when He gives EVERYTHING in the heaven and the earth to His creations for them to use and for their comfort and for their happiness, and the creation didnt acknowledge or at least look out of this Giver, yet they says it belongs to them, this land is mine, this house is mine, this body is mine.mine mine mine,everything is mine." this are all God's!! , just because we cant see the owner of tat property, we say ignorantly it belongs to no one, so it belongs to us.

Mashallah, how beautiful U are, comparing wat i gave and wat God gave. mine is of no match. and He still giving till now. Mashallah, ive lost. U still remain quiet inspite of on how Ur creation "thank U" after u gave so much to them,and u still giving us ur gifts till now. Allahuakbar.

"Allah, please take me when im at the state of missing u dearly, and the pain of longing to meet U reach the maximum, and let me recite "AshaduAllah illah ha Illallah, Wa Ashaduanna Muhammadarrasullullah on my last breath.i want to see the beauty of u in the afterlife."

Renung2 la ye.

Flexibility In Islam, To What Extent It Is Use As Setan's Tool

This was the topic given to ustad Ibrahim in the usrah which held at my house, those who attend learn alot though, and we were given wonderfull knowledge and guidelines. Alhamdullilah, inshallah ill share wat was discussed in the usrah,

As an intro, we were reminded abt the time of the last hour, zaman fitnah. the time where most of the things seem fine(tapi pada hakikatnye, bercampur aduk ngan subahat, even we try to work ourself out, mesti ada sikit2 yg terkene.)

Ill just share abt the guideline given to us for our daily life when we are practicing Flexibility in Islam, ustad gave us 3 guidelines;

1) Make an effort to islamise all actions/steps from the start to the end of wat we do.
2) If we cant, find ways to study every steps we took to ensure all actions we do are incline to near perfection. meaning, u have done all effort that satisfy both good intention and correct way of executing.
3) If we dont, wait for the consequences(look through and detect wat consequences u will face AFTER the action.)

The problem we are facing is, we somtime unable to distiguish which is right, which is wrong and which is 50-50. Ustad advice is, look through every steps and action carefully to ensure all we do is ISLAM,. if we can get better ways on tat step(meaning, we can find better ways to get near to perfection) , if we dont do that effort, alot of consequences u will take, both way, for urself and for the ppl u sharing with,either way it will affect our future leaders and islam.

Tayangkan bola pad masjid2 to atttact youth,the player of couse tak tutup aurat. sikit2 lama2 masjid2 dikotori ngan dosa2,dosa mata,can go as far as betting, dsgnye. to wat extent can islam be compromise? wats the consequences of it? nak attract youth, this not the way, the effort shud be islam, from start to the end,

Give u an example, i dunt remember the detail. but inshallah the points i get it ah,those who know this person and where he went to and when was the event taken place please dunt hesitate to help me out, thankx, k, there was an islamic leader who wants to spread islam to a country, before him the muslim went to tat country and build mosques, the mosques were burnt down and they were killed.

So this leader's goal is to spread islam to tat country. he studied the custom of the people of the country.he found out tat they like gambar2 dragon2, gambar2 binatang, even their baju is becorak gambar2 binatang, so if this leader going to let his followers wear baju2 bercorak gambar2 binatang, they will fall to haram, 1st is good niat,2nd, niat accompany with correct way,this the most challenging. so wat he did was to have incomplete corak2 binatang on his followers attire, ni tak canggah ngan islam, mcm gambar2 binatang tu pecah2, tak complete ah senang ckp, tak haram memakainye, to this effort bit by bit, he managed to islamise majority of the penduduk.

I forget wat hadith he said, but the meaning of it is " ISLAM, semuanye ISLAM, from the start to the end, from A to Z. ISLAM la sumenye. tkmu campur aduk ngan yg lain2, modify? can, follow the understanding of "making sure the process is all Islam." BECAUSE Islam is a complete religion, the most advance religion, follow islam, u will be ahead then the rest(non-islam).

Another issue we discussed abt is berbeza2 pendapat antara asatizah2, some say can, some say, "penting niat kene betul" some say cannot. so, u are at the state, where shud u follow? follow the guideline tat was given, inshallah, u free urself from any subahat.islam compromise on good intentions(good niat), correct action and the spiritual side of it, muslim heart is very sensitive, they will know which is correct, which is bercampur aduk. memperbanyakkan berzikir dan bersihkan hati, inilah cahaya yg akan memimpin kita.

Thats a different between berbeza2 pendatapt antara ULAMA' and berbeza2 pendapat antara asatizah, theres alot of ciriteria to be met in order for one to be called ulama, some of the criteria are, quran, jgan ckp hafal je, tahsirnye, asbab an nuzul(cara ayat2 turun and the context plus sejarah ia turun), hadith , huh, jgn cakap hafal, sanad2 nye, tafsiran nye, sume at the finger tips.fiqh, tasawwuf, muamalat, dsgnye hafal tau, bukan saje tau, ape lagi? banyak ah lagi, tats where it is called berbeza2 pendapat antara ULAMA' adalah rahmat. even the ulama can be wrong, but its impact is minimal, ape lagi our asatizah, and ourself. to play save, islam kan everything, from A to Z.

if i get a chance again, ill share in detail. aite, till we meet again, a reminder to myself expecially, follow islam from start to the end, and u will not be lost, in ur heart.

Narrow-mindedness in religion

Wat do u understand by tis words?

K wat do u understand by the word not narrow minded?

Creative?
Tink out of the box?
Find other solution to solve somthing?
Consider new ideas?

Narrowminded in the dic says : they are unwilling to consider new ideas or other people's opinions.

How about following the trend these days when trying to outreach to younger ppl

It falls in rite?

"lets ladies solat side by side with a non muhrim man in jemaah"
"lets drink wine in mosque"
"lets give chance for ladies to azan pad masjid"

So does these examples fall in the meaning of narrowmindedness?u are narrow minded because u didnt open urself to new ideas.THIS will come from people who only use their hukum akal.to their defence, they will say "islam is a free religion".

Y cant u accept this "creative" idea? u would says must follow the teaching of the religion too.the basic hukum hakam u must know too.we serve God.

The question now is who do you serve? Satan? Your Ego? or God? serving the first two shackles you, traps you and shuts you off in a pithole, whereas serving God earns you His Divine Grace and Favour. People often say that the liberated person is he who is free to do as he wills, even if it is a sin. In reality, they are ENSLAVED by their own nafs.

So before u execute new ideas,ask urself, are u following ur nafs?are u making islam follow wat u tink?another words, u follow islam or u want islam to follow u? are u trying to sound good even if its wrong?islam have laid us guidiance,we can be creative in following it as long as we dont go out of the teaching.

In islam, we discourage narrowmindedness because it made us weak in times.we strongly encourage open mind, creative, forward looking, all that.but from all these, we still cant bypass the basics stuff in islam.

Lets see some eg of narrowmindnedness

U cant act, because acting is a form of lying
Women cant drive car
No music, singing
Cannot watch tv
Cannot give flower
Cannot clap hands
Cannot write novel
Cannot write with left hand
Cannot celebrate birthday

Y ni sume takle?
the list will go on.all these is because u follow the non beleiver way.

Everyting here if we do, CAN or CANNOT go against our teaching, these can or cannot relies more on HOW U DO THESE THINGS.

Take music as an example. can we listen to music?common question. or can women sings? lets talk abt music 1st, music tat makes u remember GOD more, is permissible, even music tat able to release u from stress is acceptable, and even to these if these musics lead u to lalai and not to solat,it became unacceptable, music that contains alot of vulgarity and insults and melalaikan and seumpama ngan dia is not permissible, likewise for women who sings, in phrophet time pun a women sang for him when she so happy to meet him when he return.

In islam, NOT EVERYTHING can be judge by hukum akal, if judge tat way, then like wat i said above, are u serving GOD or not?

To end this, asking the muslim, what ur pendapat abt having newspaper yg ada gambar2 women tk tutup aurat pad masjid?and we take and read it in the mosque(be/not in the musollah). and this may lead to gossips, even if not, with tat available, it brings u a step closer to sins..this entry is of support to my last entry, which target more on choice. when talk abt choice, it goes back to are u following Satan? Your Ego? or God?

Halal or Haram? hmmm...

To let some1 watch a movie like any hollywood or bollywood movies(with good learning points) with aurat expose is not correct!! especially in the mosque.

NO, it isnt, cos it knowledge, and our niat is more on for the audience to learn from the knowledge the vedio sharing.

If u want to talk on the basis of "because is knowledge and is our niat that matters more" , then everything can fall in this claim,eg, i show u a vedio of hmm, how to kiss ur wife or ur husband, under the reason of how to show affection to ur spouse, and with a niat of to educate ppl on how to make a better family.how about porn then?to educate ppl abt how to have sex and having an intention for married couple to njoy each other MORE and reduce the divorce rate.its knowledge btw.

Then xplain to me how are u going to educate ppl abt gonorrhea? if u claim tat looking the aurat is haram, how are we going to learn abt this knowledge if we dunt look at this pictures of gonorrhea?

I dunt tink u get my point clear, the 1st 3 letters i start with is "To let some1" in the 1st paragraph. it became a choice here,to let, so abt the gonorrhea, do u have any other CHOICE to learn abt that knowledge if u dunt look at the pictures? yes rite? which is, u can visit this patients, or u became the patient. if u visit the patients, many problem will rise, will u be at the 1st place be comfortable?maybe u are,k, will the patients want to make themselve as learning tools? many will be in the state of sadness and shamefulness.how bout u be the patient? then u can learn abt gonorrhea all ur life. this just some of the problems tat will or might occur.both way is difficult to carry out.

So wats ur point u are making?

Im talking abt choice, u leave with no other better choice to learn abt gonorrhea then to look at the pictures, it protect the patients' identity, and save u for having 1, so looking at the picture to learn abt that knowledge is not haram,because u have no other choice and is essential to know abt it.When u just says tat its knowledge and good niat, everything is ok, is as though u have no other choice other then to show those hollywood or bollywood movies to deliver the msg(which is a good msg). tats alot of cons to the path to learn abt gonorrhea, so the best way to learn abt gonorrhea is to look at the pictures.so students can learn from this and when they became doctors they can detect patients with this signs more effeicently. so do u have any other choice to deliver the good msg in the hollywood movies?

Yes, i can reenact back in a better way.get the good points in the movie and act it back with us in aurats enclose.

Exactly, if we dunt see all posibility, everything can be under the name of knowledge and good niat.now u can see that how thin the margin is between halal and haram? not only u save urself from lost in halal haram world, u also teach the audience how important to look deeply abt an issue when u tell the audience y is the movie not shown and instead is the reenactment of it, the audience will understand how important to understand the thin margin tat separates halal and haram by the way u deliver the msg across.

To end this, ill like to say:
Without knowledge a Muslim may not be able to distinguish between halal and haram, between what is commanded and what is prohibited. As a result of this confusion, halal may be abandoned on the wrong assumption that it is haram, and haram may be committed on the wrong assumption of being halal .

To the end of time, muslims difficult to distinguish between wat is halal and what is haram.where halal can be seen as haram, and haram can be seen as halal.

Syiekh Hisham once said,
"WHEN ISLAM BEGIN TO suit itself to its people, it begins to lose its honour."

DREAM!!

Are we leaving in reality in this world? or are we just dreaming?

All would agree that there is no external equivalent of the events in the dream, they only exist in the mind.in the dream, u encounter all 5 senses as if they were real, a person falls from a high place in the dream feels it with all his body, even though he is lying in his bed without moving. u feel cold or hot in an environment in the dream,as if u were awake.dreams are just images form in our brain.

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i started my journey in a yacht. i can SEE the horizon, SMELL the ocean, FEEL the sea with my hands, HEAR the sea came crushing by the side of the boat, TASTE the sweetness of the grapes while njoying the breeze. i was then awaken by my alarm clock and im ready to tell my fren that what i was living at that moment isn't a dream. will u say that im mad?

When people wake up, they then understand that what they've seen until that moment is a dream, But for some reason they are not suspicious that the life that starts with a "waking" image(that they call "real life") can also be a dream. THE WAY WE PERCEIVE IMAGES IN "REAL LIFE" IS EXACTLY THE SAME WAY WE PERCEIVE IN OUR DREAM. we see both of them in mind. WE CANNOT UNDERSTAND THEY ARE IMAGES UNTIL WE ARE WOKEN UP. ONLY then do we say "what i have just seen was a dream". So How can we prove that what we see at any given moment is not a dream? We could be assuming that the moment in which we are living is real just because we haven't yet woken up.

It is possible that we will discover this fact when we are woken up from this "waking dream" which takes longer than dreams we see everyday.we do not have evidence to prove otherwise.

A great Islamic scholar, Muhyiddin Ibn al-'Arabi, referred to as Syeikh Akbar(The greatest sheikh) due to his superior knowledge, liken the world to our dreams by quoting a saying of the Prophet Muhammad s.a.w:

The prophet Muhammad s.a.w said that " people are asleep and wake up then they die." This is to say that the objects seen in the world when alive are similar to those seen when asleep while dreaming, meaning that they exist in the imagination.

In a verse of Quran, people are told to say on doomsday when they are resurrected from the dead.:

They will say, "Alas for us! Who has raised us from our sleeping-place? This is what the All-Merciful promised us.The Messengers were telling the truth." (Quran, 36:52)

As the verse demonstrates, people wake up on doomsday as if waking from a dream, Like some1 woken from the middle of a dream in a deep sleep, such people will similarly ask who has woken them up. As the verse points out, the world around us is like a dream and everybody will be woken up from this dream, and will begin to see images of the afterlife,

Which is THE REAL LIFE!!

How He teaches me to have ikhlas

Somthing i wish to share here,

1stly, do u understand what ikhlas means? "ni ikhlas dari i" kata2 ni biasa di dengar kan?

wat does actually ikhlas means? here how God teach me how to be ikhlas.

here it goes.

last time i always face with financial difficulties. always in a state of not enuf money, dapat duit, "hilang" g2 mcm je.

i went to a mosque and listen to what the ustad preach. the topic discussed was donation. in short, he said

"Make donation and u will never be poor.and every donation, He will in return give u 10x of wat u donate."

i asked myself, i already shortage of money. how donation can help. the ustad go on and explain abt setan will wisper to u that "donation will make u poor" because u see the money(ur money) depleting. well just try to evercome tat bad wisper and yes, i make some donation.tis was hmm, 5-6 yrs ago i tink. haha.

and i dunt like it. because i dunt see im not getting any benefit. tis time i failed to see tat i was on a state of unwillingness. then after sometime, i overheard another ustad tat says

"things tat u know its good but its just difficult to practice, just do it and soon it will become ikhlas."

i tried to practice tat.

Soon, tis is wat i get.when i return home, i was given a free treat from my fren. i told myself, rezki. alhamdulilah. i still havent relise anyting at tat point of time. and the amount i donated is only 50cent(bare in mind, im still in secondary sch).

then my life begins to change abit. the more i donate, the more i get, not in the form of only food. knowldge, good frens.. etc2.. then i realise the benefit of donation. i tried to recall, "He gives back 10x in return ." the day after, i donated 1$ in the hope of 10x in return.i didnt get anything, and i had tat intention for abt a week. i started to question myself. where i go wrong? after a while, its fated for me to sit in a class where tassawuf was being tought. and it was highlited tat must do everything for only of His purpose and not wanting His rewards bcos we're His slave and a slave owns nothing.so dunt expect anything in return.

there was a time, that i gave a donation and tried no to have any thought of reward in mind. just sole purpose of worship. i donated 40cents.put the coins, shut my mind, lillaahita 'alaah, and walk off.. tat nite i went to my frens hse to chill out, fated for me to loiter arnd his doorstep. out came his neighbour who handed me a pack of hangbao, cinese new year. open it up later on and found out that it contain $4. impresing. 40cents, $4 in return. "10x God will repay back"

and an interesting happen with just a swift of different niat. at tat point of time, im expecting reward after given $4. so initial niat was lillaahita'aalaah, but after receiving $4, i forget abt the purpose, tat very split seconds,my niat changed from donating because of only of His purpose, to doing things and expeecting a reward,

guess wat,

i returned home and found out my shoe which cost about $40 lost..!!

interesting huh..

from here u can see tat do thing because of onli Him, u will get wat was promise, "10x the reward". if of any other purpose or intention, He knows how to deal with u.

then after tat incident, i realise the benefit of to donate and shut my mind off of any reasons, no1 knows, no1 sees, only me and Him knows. didnt expect anythnig in return.and i njoys rewards mashallah only God knows.

i then understand what "ikhlas" means. refuse to accept "thank u" from any1. accepting "thank u" means wanting somthing in return,tat is want som1 to say "thank u". if we give a gift and expecting the other party to say "thank u" then better check on our niat again.

Give gifts for a "thank u" or give gifts for His purpose..

Another thing many of us didnt relize is to put on our niat during donation, many of us just donate because "its a good deed" then question this to urself, wats the different between a beleiver and a non-believer giving the same donation? they have the same purpose(to help) and same heart(for good deed), the diff lies in the niat, we need to really look deeply on the purpose we donate is bcos of Him,and nothing else(shut everything up).

God has a very unique way of doing stuff, He is the most smartest by the way. God plans eh, very interesting , how He teaches me some knowledge indirectly. Mashallah.

Syukur

Normally, people say. "u get somthing u want or love, be thankfull. if u dont, have patience.".

What standard is this? come on make a guess...

dunt be shock with the ans,

its the standard of a dog.

A dog behave exactly like tat. he gets food, he wags his tail(signifying thankfullness). if he dunt, he just wait patiencely at the side.

So wat is human standard?

"if u didnt get the things u want or love, be thankfull. if u get wat u want or love, make sure u benefit it to others." thus its an obligation for us to constantly do good. seek usefull knowledge. hunger progression.

tat is standard of human.

if we have this mentallity, imagine how this world will be. every1 will work hard to make this world a better place.

And by my experience, u njoy life after some time. y?

u are in a state of happiness all the time.u feel thankfull all the time, felt syukur on everything God gives u. u get anything from Him(weather u perceived it as good or not), u be thankfull. because, 1stly u view it as a gift from HIm, and 2ndly, u feel u have a purpose on life, to seek, to share and to make this world a better place .


some amal to practice and be happy.

1) recite laa ilaa ha illallah many times.
2) selawat many times
3) recite the quran frequently.
4) understand the angels' job.
5) think of death and hereafter where u stand infront of Him.
6) understand wat is qada' qadar(God wishes). and u be happy for any fate given to u.


if u notice carefully, i just state out rukun iman. this wat mostly muslim didnt see, the basic is not firm yet. concentrate on the foundation 1st. 1-3 can be done even when u are walking towards the bustop. so fully utalize ur time.

hmm, i must be the 1st to practice wat i said here. hope u guys can benefits it too inshallah,.

amen


ishak

The Truth Abt 911

Prayers

Looking straight to where i will put my forehead in a few moment's time, i start to ponder, wats the first ting i said b4 i entered the solat.



"Allaahuakbar". thinking deeply on wat it means.God the Great. Standing still, trying to interprete wats does Greatness means?



He is the strongest,

He is the most powerfull,

He doesnt need me.

He can do wat ever He wants and wishes.

He relies on no one,

He stand alone,

He can punish me on that very instant,



Lastly



He dont need my prayers to make Him stronger or better or greater.



So, what am i doing here(solating)? Yes it compulsory for every Muslim to perform the 5 prayers each day. what? 5 prayers? ONLY 5 prayers? y 5? Dont u tink tats too little? we should be performing every sec of our life. because we are His servants. How do servants suppose to behave?

k, let say, i said "im ur servant from 8-5". tat means i have to obey everything u said in tat period of time, rite? servant in ppl's contex, is that the servant do things tat benefits the master(master's wishes), do we do things tat benefits God?

If we be the most evil person in this world, it will not make any difficulty to Him nor if we be the most pious person in this world, it will not benefit Him. so, do u tink of who u are?



Put aside that whole thing for a while.let us look at some of the benefit of solat.



It neutralize ur negative charges in the body, the more solat u do,ikhlasly and kusyukly, it will covers ur soul with positive charges. when u put ur forhead to the ground, it supplies blood to that area and make u feel calmer. and if we notice carefully, wat we said in the prayers is doa, for ourself.



So, am i praying becos of god make it compulsary?........ or i need the prayers, FOR MYSELF, and not for Him, look at how much he love us, He dunt need our solat, we need His help,



Think again, so much thing that he told us not to do, but we do, and he give punishment if we do it, why he punish me for my own good, and make ting compulsory for my own good. A mother can only do that if she is close with us, But now He is with us day and night, without sleep, u want anything, go straight to Him, BECAUSE He knows ur destiny more then anyone else. y go to someone else where u have the best planner with u.. He is the Lord, Lord of the world. who have the power to harm u, but He choose to show His affection to us in Mashallah super large quantity and quality.



Every sec of my life ive been neglecting the command of my lord, and he choose to give me time to repent other then to punish me on the spot, EVEN IN THE PRAYERS I FAILED TO CONCENTRATE, yet he didnt punish me at that very instant.Bare in mind, He is the most powerfull,The Strongest. y is God so kindhearted?



He gives me time and guide me every sec of my life, he helps me choose proper food for my consumption so i can be healthy, he pushed me to be better every sec, and i failed to notice that. somtime when i began to forget him, he gave me some "knock" eg realizing an extra penny given by the store owner, to me say, eh i forget him. he make me remember him when i forget Him, the remembrance is for me too... so every sec of my life is in contact with the best planner who already plans my entire life. He can change my life,He knows wat will happen 1 min or a sec later... He determines weather U R ABLE TO FINISH READING tis sentence or not.. u decide.

Supposingly, i shud be kicked, wacked, thrown from great height, bashed, burned for my entire life because i forgets Him every sec in my life. even in solat, wat i concern is just abt my worldly stuff.ignorantly and obliviously dunt bother to care who am i facing to, where am i standing at, this is His creation. He owns this place, the place wher i am standng at. the body parts i used to perform my standing position on the praying mat..the views and the sight im looking at on the praying mat its all His.

Even the action of praying its not from me. He allows me to perform the prayers without dificulty, and sometime i just unable to say anithing when i started to think that He rewards us with eternal life in paradise when we do our solats to Him. again, i cant do any prayers, everything is under His command. and the prayers is for MYSELF,

So to put it out, He helps me perform solat,for myself. helps me to reflect on who i am in tis world, whose my body parts belongs to.so i can reflect beter so He can be with me every sec. He helps me to have good charecter towards other creations.

He dunt want me to forget Him, if i forgets Him, He wants me to remember Him, its as though, "dunt, dunt... dunt forget Me in ur heart" somtime just wonder....hmmmm "how affection u are" . He gives everyting to me.EVERYTHING.Mashallah. I want to meet u my Lord. and He rewards me with paradise for performing solats . again, i cant do solat without His permission. and solat is for myself and NOT for Him.so,if i weight carefully, ive done nothing for Him. NOTHING, oh my. for all the love and care and guidance and rewards and helps, i pay back with being a slave who thinks he owns everything at his master's place and be ungratefull. haiz,,

*back to my solat

Alhamdulillah hi robbil'aalamiin..... Mashallah,U are soooo beautifull.
Arrahmaanirrahiim....ur love is unmeasurable, i cant count every gifts u had given me.
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i cant move, im soooo embarass, i dare to stand infront of U without bothering to put on kusyuk for just a short time.i felt so ashame, i used all ur stuff without weighing it. oh Lord, where can i go now? i cant face anywhere, its all urs, i cant pay all that. i tried my best not to take anyting or ask anything more but i cant, in the solat, i already asked from U Ur help. every sec in my lfe, its like U GIVE ME GIFTS WHICH I CANT STOP, and still u give me gifts till now. my sight.. my senses. my thought, my physical body, my wonderfull destiny ahead and b4.

Lord of the world, King of all kings, Forgive me of all my sins..Please God, forgive me.i want to meet U, let me meet U, please..

A man did something good is it to get themselves rewarded? Do we have the right to get ourselves rewarded? Remember, we just a slave. How do slaves supposed to be treated? And how does God treats His slaves? Ever ponder about that? We have total liberty of the gifts God gives to us such as your physical noun. Don’t you get the freedom to move your eyes across these words?

Don’t you get the freedom to command your body movement? Thus, He asks for nothing else in return of His gifts to his servants accept for be an obedient slaves. Even to these, being an obedient slave is of benefit to us in form of character, social life, spirituality, knowledge, and a lot more. Who are we?